Monday 31 December 2012

Beyond

We have walked a long way now, two years and four months. We have gone through good times and bad times in all this time, but the journey had been a awesome experience of knowledge and sharing. Since the first day we met each other, I have learned so many things through her. I learned how to love, how to be a better person, how to grow in the inner way, how to cook (well, no that much haha!) and learn how life can be wonderful.

I am, at last, moving to Brasilia very soon. I was scared of many changes in the begining, and Pree encouraged me to move ahead, to go for what is not known by me. I accepted that challenge, to go for a new adventure in my life, to make another city my home. To have a life as a couple and to gain love and force and to learn more about each other. It will be a second stage of knowledgment, having already a very good base of communication and knowlegdment of ourselves.


Im leaving Lima for some time and changes are coming, all for good, all for continuing this voyage through this world, yet to be known and understanded. Lima will always be in my heart, with all that compunds it, my family, my friends, our ways. And I`ll much more value in each of my interconnectness experience with all these humans beings, all of the beauty in their very own way, and I`ll remeber even more every great time we had together, more vividly and I`ll always have a big smile in my face.

Im arriving in Brasilia, where new experiences wait for me. And I go with my arms and head open, to embrace whatever may come. To push the envelope. To stay with my love. To bring the best of me. To make new friendships. Never asked a visa before, just for the US, where I was denied twice. And then, Brasil came, with its open doors. And that`s just a great beginning, to be received with wide opened eyes.


We will cook brasilian and peruvian food. We will learn each others language to the point of mastering it. We will listen to all the great music yet to be discovered. We will get older together, and the promise to get wiser with this, when we learn from our mistakes and flaws, we will go over every little thing bugging us. It wont be easy, but we keep walking, we keep this impredecible journey.


Pree may doesnt know, but I invited every single friend I had on Perú and other countries to come to visit me in Brasil. All of them know who they are, so im awaiting for you guys, let me speak spanish once in a while.

Ursinha, im going there to be with the love of my life, whith the girl who opened to me, who shares her heart and thoughts with me, who let me explore that infinty that every person carries with itself. Some say it`s a new era, a new Baktún, according to the Mayas lithography. So be it for us, as below so above.

Keep me in your head bebe, keep your sky blue and your soil green, Brasilia, keep me in your memories familiy and friends, and, then, we say, let's go!


Beyond we go!

Sunday 30 December 2012

What it meant to me


The year is ending, and there are so many memories of it. It started uncertain and so insecure, but Victor never allowed me to fear it. Always told me to trust in time and myself, and that I could handle anything.  

He was right. And I think I may have learnt a bit about tryin to be calmer in front of the non controllable or planned. And, again, I realized it’s better we keep calm when the tectonic plates of life vibrate. Anxiety disrupts the walk.

I did not let anxiety behind in 2012, Im still a dumb sometimes, but I gained more experience and I make my best to control it each day. I got a terrific partner, which surprised me every day for being so kind and patient, for wishing me so many good vibes and making so many efforts to make me happy. Partner this one that on January decided that it would not be so bad to commit with me and finaly did the proposal. I said no to create a dramatic scene, but sooner i’d get on my knees.

He had to put up with a lot this year. My anxiety about my new life and jobs, coupled with the fact that I was also anxious wondering when the hell we were going to stay together were not easy to stand. He saw me losing my confidence in future several times. Being in a long distance relationship was driving me crazy. Such a mess we were in! Still, he remained faithful to me and us and brought my faith back.

The process of transforming a long distant relationship in a real one (not denying a long distance relationship is also real) is difficult and painful. 2012 was about that, the painful transition.

We fell in Love in 2010. In 2011 we lived the apex of confidence and we had so much fun while together, we were so certain all was going to be right, all we needed was love. But 2012 changed everything for both of us and for profissional reasons we had to spend more time appart and we started realizing that time, money and distance could win and maybe separate us. That was not something impossible, i mean, reasonable thinking. And knowing it was not impossible was just too scary sometimes.

Thats why i say 2012 was hard for both of us. Also, we knew each other better. Knowing each other better means we know our ups and downs better than before and our downs were really annoying, as anyone else’s. ;) We tried to kill each other (using skype) lot of times. But somehow was easy to made up and let the love speak, that was the good part and it seems all we have passed made us strong as a couple – a big cliche.

But there was the distance, again. This little bitch is huge and stronger  than anyone can imagine. Was a tuff fight. But somehow the distance was just too much to stand, the willing to be together was also strong, and the decision had to be done for real. But, see, one of us having to pack up and leave your own world, friends, work, home, life, culture, language... it hurted sometimes.

Since the decision till now, when we received his brazilian visa, was a big walk. But its getting everyday more real for both of us, less painful for him, I hope, who is now leaving his town. He is dealing with this like a very rational man, a man who does not fear. His courage makes me strong too and I’m ready to suport him in anyways. All I want is to be a home for him and i’m sure Peru and Brazil will walk together in our lives. 

I know my baby will sometimes feel sad by being  far away from his people. I know my baby will have good and bad days in Brasil. I know he will maybe guilt me for the bad ones. I know my babe will miss peruvian food.  I know he will be fed up with some pieces of the brazilian culture sometimes. I know we will now know each other more and more and that we now have to be two times more patient (hehe). Finaly, we both know now we start another challenging period. Mas agora a gente vai juntinho. E juntinho a gente vai bem.

Felicidade é pouco.

Muita sabedoria e amor pra gente, parceiro.

Pra você, o melhor de mim.

See you next month. 

P.S: Vic learnt portuguese in 2012. and we stoped making the english our language.

Friday 21 December 2012

2013 is coming for us

Mais um aninho passando, mais um aninho entrando.
2013 vai ser ano de ok no visto, mudança do Vic pro Brasíu, armários novos e dívidas, né, bebê?
;)

Feliz*


Thursday 11 October 2012

Come away with me

Come away with me in the night  (like that UNB night)
Come away with me
And I will write you a song (like no one will write to you)

Come away with me on a bus (like to Floripa)
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies  (no one!)

I want to walk with you   (when i asked you to be my brasilian girlfriend)
On a cloudy day         (in Lima)         
In fields where the yellow grass grows   (when is dry in Brasilia)
knee-high    
So won't you try to come?

Come away with me and we'll kiss   (wont you have a little conversation with me in your room?)
On a mountaintop    (or in Machu Picchu)
Come away with me   (I guarantee much love)




Song by Norah Jones

Wednesday 19 September 2012

ausencia

Habré de levantar la vasta vida
que aún ahora es tu espejo:
cada mañana habré de reconstruirla.
Desde que te alejaste,
cuántos lugares se han tornado vanos
y sin sentido, iguales
a luces en el día.
Tardes que fueron nicho de tu imagen,
músicas en que siempre me aguardabas,
palabras de aquel tiempo,
yo tendré que quebrarlas con mis manos.
¿En qué hondonada esconderé mi alma
para que no vea tu ausencia
que como un sol terrible, sin ocaso,
brilla definitiva y despiadada?
Tu ausencia me rodea
como la cuerda a la garganta,
el mar al que se hunde.


(Ausencia, JL Borges)

Saturday 4 August 2012

You And I


Don't you worry there my honey
We might not have any money
But we've got our love to pay the bills

Maybe I think you're cute and funny
Maybe I wanna do want bunnies do with you 
If you know what I mean

Oh lets get rich and buy our parents 
homes in the south of France
Lets get rich 
And give everybody nice sweaters 
And teach them how to dance
Lets get rich and build a house 
on a mountain making everybody 
Look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I

Well you might be a bit confused
And you might be a little bit bruised
But baby how we spoon like no one else
So I will help you read those books
If you will soothe my worried looks
And we will put the lonesome on the shelf

(Ingrid Michaelson)

Friday 13 July 2012



Today is my boyfriend's birthday.  ;)

<3

Thursday 28 June 2012

Trying spanish

Hay días en que lo extraño mucho. Hay días en que lo presiono para que sea azul, verde y un poquito púrpuro. Hay días en que peleamos porque a él no le gusta ser de color púrpura. Hay días en que estoy molesta porque a él le olvidó que podía ser azul, porque a él también le gusta el azul. Algunos días necesitamos blanco. Algunos días me quiere en espera, en silencio. Hay días en que yo regresó, y él estaba allí. Algunos días él passa el día fuera y cuando regresó, yo no estaba aquí. Hay días (minutos) que no queremos nos hablar, por orgullo. Algunos días hablamos de lo que no debemos, por inmadurez. Algunos días son engalfinha. Hay días en que todo lo que necesitamos es menos de 4.000 km de distancia. Algunos días sólo centímetros pueden curar la molestia y despresurización del aire que la distancia causa. Algunos días nos reímos de todo. Me gustan estos días. Somos fuertes. Entonces seguimos con la paciencia y la esperanza de que vamos por buen camino.




Tudo Está Cheio de Amor

Você receberá amor

Você receberá cuidado

Você receberá amor

Você tem que confiar nisso


Gire sua cabeça

Está tudo ao seu redor

Tudo está cheio de amor

Tudo ao seu redor

Tudo está cheio de amor

Wednesday 13 June 2012

                       Song by Bjork

Tuesday 12 June 2012

A Winter Dream
In winter we’ll travel in a little pink carriage
With cushions of blue.
We’ll be fine. A nest of mad kisses waits
In each corner too.

You’ll shut your eyes, not to see, through the glass,
Grimacing shadows of evening,
Those snarling monsters, a crowd going past
Of black wolves and black demons.

Then you’ll feel your cheek tickled quite hard…
A little kiss, like a maddened spider,
Will run over your neck…

And you’ll say: “Catch it!” bowing your head,
– And we’ll take our time finding that creature
– Who travels so far… 
Arthur Rimbaud

Who she is


She's a smiling rebel. There's no trail of bad feelings for anyone. She’s a listener and a wise woman who knows what she wants in life and goes for it. I ask myself sometimes how she gets so much love for everyone: the nice, the cripple, the blind. Clear in thought and focused at work. She’s a hell of a strong girl and knows how to use this strengh in positives ways. Open minded goes all the way, and what is not clear, she makes clear. She will add to your cause if it has a good point. She will jump on me and hug me for hours, passing her warm arms through my body and mind. Or she will caress my hair all nights before going to sleep. And I see her on my dreams, and i move forward to the light she shines. She will show me the beautiness of the world and will share it with everyone. She adores TV comedy and Salpicão. Likes Caipiroska of morango with a nice cigarro de palha. She has a great sense of humor and great taste for music, which she likes to share with me. She will go all the way in a 90 minutes football match. She would take me every night to share the stargazing and a nice Japanese food. I admire her bravery and her brightness in life. But most of all, Priscilla knows how to make this fella here really happy. Believing in the power of love. Didn’t I won the lottery?




                                   
Jumping with her into the adventure of life is the greatest experience!

Valentine's day


He listens to me very carefully. He pays attention to what I say. He gives me goods advices, always full of goodness and maturity. He has paxion, he is a dreamer. He is carinhoso. He gives me 5 beijinhos per second. He takes me to eat out every day. He pays attention when Im eating too much. He takes care of me when Im feeling sick. He never fight with me and he is very patient with my bossy way of be. He is still shy as if it was the first day. He has big eyes and like looking at mine very close. He likes watching to cheesy serious on TV with me. He lets me decide what movie we will watch (because of that sometimes I let him decide too. Haha). He does not let me cross the limits with anything and makes clear when im acting immature. He is comprehensible and always tries to understand my side, even - and more - when im wrong. He likes my friends and family. We are together for 2 years and I have never heard him saying bad things about anyone. He is not judgmental at all. He is sweet. He is friendly and respectful and smart. He likes videos, simpsons and guitars. He is kind and he is damn handsome. My “peruvian God”, I use to say. Sometime I caught myself thinking how lucky I am. And I'm in love with us.

And when distance makes things hard, we know in our hearts this situation is our Everest Monatain and that we won't give up. We will get to that top.

Wednesday 16 May 2012

The mess we`re in III - by Vic

Tener a Pree en Lima fue muy emocionante en todo momento. Luego de haber viajado dos veces a Brasil, ya podía conocer algo mejor el entorno de Pree, a sus amigos y familia. Para mi fue algo gradual, para ella, vino todo de golpe, mis padres, mis amigos, mi casa y costumbres, lugares a los que voy en Lima. Siempre pensé que Lima turísticamente es algo aburrida, y por suerte para mi, pude encontrar pasajes baratos a Cusco y llevar a Pree a conocer uno de los mejores lugares del planeta: Machu Picchu. Eso puede compensar la tragedia sangrienta en el estadio, o el gusto de nosotros los peruanos por el pescado, que Pree no disfruta nadita.

Llegué tarde al aeropuerto, unos pocos minutos tarde, pero Pree ya estaba ahí y fue ella quien me sorprendió de espaldas, y cuando nos vimos nos dimos un caluroso beso y un más caluroso abrazo, esa sensación tan plena de abrazar a quien amas y no puedes ver siempre. Y hasta el día de hoy sigo sintiendo eso. Después de regatear algunas decenas al taxista nos enrumbamos para mi casa. En el camino Pree iba descubriendo Lima, desordenada, ingrata con el clima, pero hermosa en su propio entender. Le iba indicando, entre beso y besotes las avenidas y calles principales, Av La Marina, Av. Faucett, Av, Javier Prado, etc.

Llegamos a casa luego de sortear el inclemente tráfico de Lima al mediodía. En casa, mi mamá recibió a Pree, con un ramo de flores, que ella dijo que era de mi parte, jajaja, pobre Pree cuando descubrió que mi mamá las había comprado. Le enseñé toda la casa y aunque esté viejita, siempre es acogedora. Había algo de bocaditos para Pree y por ahí un tamal (que en Brasil es Pamonha, gracias Meire), y Pree le tomó una fotografía, y esa fue su primera foto en Lima.

(continuaré pronto bebezinha...)

Tuesday 24 April 2012

The mess we’re in, Part III – By Pree

I won’t forget the day he left Brasilia for the first time. We were both in a line towards the check in balcony. We were not speaking. We were quiet, waiting for his turn. I just remember my body was asking me not to let his go. I wanted our skins together till the last moment before he embarks. It was like I could not stop hugging him and each hug was essential to give us strength and making us believe that was not a goodbye. Crazy shit.

Seeing him entering in the departing room was painful. Looking at his japanese/peruvian eyeys, also in pain, was painfull. But something was telling me we were entering in a special situation. We were entering in a new world, where both wanted to live in by themselves even though we did not have a glue of what we would find in future, and that was special for itself, that was believing in something big again. And, well, speaking for myself… I was trustless I would feel such a thing one day.

But, well, I fell in love with this shy guy. He fell in love with me. We used to write to each other every day, like, very big emails, with questions and curiosity. It was also a nice fase to tell each other the reaction of our family and friends after knowing we were having a long distance relationship. That we were in love. We used to act like two fools, talking about the magic it was that for us. It was a great time in our relationship, where everything were like flowers, pure paxion, saudades, vontade, all new, all great, all pure and very possible, just like heaven.

After one or two weeks he got to buy his tickets to come again (in 2 moths or more) and I remember counting days, hours, minutes, seconds. I remember what I felt, I remember that I was the most happy girl in world. Waiting for him was a ritual and a preparation to make him find home in me. And I would finally find home in his arms, teki like that. 

By the way, that was a peculiar time in my life. All was flowing well with job and family and all. He came to give me even more light.

Then, little by little our first problems got to us.  Problems with conexion, problems with the texting stuff, expensive calls, expensive tickets, lack of time to fit a little travel inside the work routine. But nothing seemed to let us down. He were coming and all was ok. We were finding our own dynamic, as a couple who were living a long distance relationship, and also as Vic and Pree.  

Language. English language came to help us. I could not understand his English without asking twice about the same sentence he had just spoken. He is not good with the past tense  and I was not that good with the vocabulary. Although I have lived in England, I kind of forgot lot of important and quotidian words. But we got to understand each other very well after some time and helping each other. Sometimes, nobody would understand us in world, but we would.

We started knowing each other very well. He started realizing I was not that calm I looked like. I was anxious. Meanwhile, I started realizing he was really being honest when said he used to forget things, being a bit slow. He is the most slow person in world.  But the most lovely one too. 

He came again. I was in heaven again. I introduced him to more friends, who loved his shy and also nice way to behave. He has some fans nowadays. 

He used to take care of Chico, my cat, while I was working. Getting home was happiness. Them both waiting for me. 

So cute to see him worried about his clothes in the day I was about to take him to have lunch in my parents house… He was nervous like hell. Sweet.

I took him to Chapada dos Veadeiros, we rented a big house and it was so good to wake up listening to the birds outside and him by myside… The trackings, the Waldomiro’s cachaças, our friends together, all great.

I remember I was trying to show him great landscapes in Cerrado. He was enjoying a lot, but not amazed and I was kind of disappointed with that. (Once I got to Peru  I understood what would be to be amazed with the landscapes around, course. Not that Cerrado is not beautiful. But there is something magical about Peru Lands. The Gods’s land).

And, well, he had to come back to Peru. One more bye, one more crying. I remember we were taking a shower together, crying like fools under the shower. It used to be damn sad the day before. It still is, but in another way. Maybe even more deep, even more painfull, but calmer.

Before leaving, Victor told me he would still be responsible for the next travels to Brazil. He works as a freelancer, what allowed and allows him to come often. But that was getting too expensive for him, I knew it, and I don’t even remember for sure when it was, but we decided we had to be equal on this traveling thing. So I gave up on my Uruguay tickets to go to Peru in the end of 2010, and also went to Argentina. After the pampas argentines, went to Lima, to be in his land for the first time. 

Meeting his family was amazing. His mother, so vivid, always dancing and cooking so many nice Peruvian foods. His street… he had a street. ;) And it was a sweet street. 

He had brothers, Kike, Lalo. He had a sister-in-law, he had a father, he had a step-father, he had nephews, he had good and great and funny friends, he had a room. I love his room. Our room.
Knowing his city and his country was really remarkable. First, because he toke me into a romantic travel and the first thing he invited me to do was going to a football stadium. Second that we had strange facts happened in there. 

And 3 that I got in love with his country right there, even though it did not seem at first, because of all the troubles we passed through in this first travel. Haha. It was our first travel in Peru, to Cuzco. And he will continue from here, to write about our first travel in Peruvian lands and my first time in Lima. Se vira, amorzão.
               

Thursday 29 March 2012

The mess we're in, Part III - By Vic

Entré al departing room muy triste después de despedirme de Pree. En aquella sala solo quería poder salir y encontrarla de nuevo. En el avión estuve muy triste también, por dejarla e irme a mi país, pero tenía que partir. Pensé todo el viaje en ella y en la grandiosa aventura por tierras brasileras.

Cuando llegué a Lima le conté la historia de Pree y yo a mi familia, quienes estuvieron muy contentos con esta relación y todos querían conocer a Pree (que no se daría hasta diciembre de ese mismo año, cuando ella visitó Perú por primera vez).

De ahí empezamos nuestra LDR a través de internet, via gmail principalmente. También fue un pretexto para adquirir otras tecnologías que nos hicieran estar tal vez más cerca. Yo compré una cámara web y dos celulares, para enviar y recibir mensajes del extranjero.

No fue fácil, pero lo supimos llevar bien. Emails todos los días (o casi todos) y conversaciones por el gtalk a diario. Empezamos a compartir de manera distinta las cosas. Ya sabes cómo es, la relación cambia su dinámica cuando es por una pc que cuando es cara a cara. Fuimos descubriendo muchas cosas nuevas y esos primeros meses, a pesar de la distancia, seguiamos en un proceso continuo de conocimiento mutuo.

Nos volvimos a ver 2 meses después en octubre, cuando volví por diez días a Brasil. Fue oportunidad para nuestro primer reencuentro, un abrazo feroz y muchos besos. Y cada vez que voy, siempre hay algo nuevo por descubrir, nuevas palabras, nuevos amigos, nuevos lugares. Chico, el gato de Pree en ese entonces, había crecido mucho, su casa tenía pequeños cambios, había implementado mejor su computadora, etc.

Hicimos un viaje genial a Chapada, con Jacque, Sergio, Fernanda y Fernando, en parejitas, como se dice. Ahí conocí por primera vez a Fernando y conocí mejor a Jacque, Sergio y Fernanda. A todos ellos ya los había visto la primera vez y serían a la larga mis mejores amigos en Brasil también. Hoy en día ya no veo mucho a Fernando, pero en ese viaje, Fernando me pasó la voz para salir y conocer la ciudad. Desde aquel entonces nos hicimos grandes amigos y yo quedé con una gran estima por él. Gente legal diríamos.

Asimismo, conocí mejor a los padres de Pree, Clarice y Sebastiao. Yo siempre muy tenso al lado de ellos, pero hoy en día es mucho mejor la comunicación, aunque sigue siendo escasa. Tiempo en el futuro Clarice se quedaría en mi casa por unos días. La pasamos genial con ellas aquí en Lima.

Volviendo al tema de Chapada dos Veadeiros, pues fue nuestro primer viaje juntos. Fuimos en carro, unas dos horas desde el centro de Brasil. Ahí probé unos tragos donde Waldemiro, donde también intenté tocar una corneta gigante; no pude.

En Chapada, habíamos alquilado una casa grande, muy bonita, rodeada de naturaleza y aire fresco, como para quedarse a vivir. Un lugar tranquilo, lleno de cachoeiras (cascadas) y ríos, pero con gran afluencia de personas los días festivos. Nos bañamos en las pequeñas lagunas formadas dentro de pozos hechos de piedra volcánica. Demasiado bueno para el calor de Brasilia. Por las noches disfrutábamos de unos tragos en los varios bares que hay por la zona. Dentro de algunas de esas muchas conversaciones que tuvimos entre cerveza y caipiroskas, aprendí a hacer el sonido del sexo con las manos... solo para estar seguro que puede sonar muy parecido, y esto es claro, un sexo desenfrenado jajaja.

El viaje fue corto, a Chapada y a Brasilia. Pree solía ir a Correio Brasiliense y yo quedaba en casa con Chico hasta las 7pm, donde tenía que salir a la estación de buses de Guará II y tomar el bus para su trabajo. Unos 40 minutos, que disfrutaba en el bus, generalmente vacío. De ahí íbamos para butecos, bares o casa de amigos de Pree.

Un día antes de irme, fuimos a una exposición de Escher y su mundo mágico, fue genial y di cuenta por primera vez, de como la cultura en Brasilia es tan difundida. Me gustó mucho eso. Tomamos muchas fotos en la exposición y todas las locuras de Escher. De ahí fuimos para Feira da Torre, para comprar algunos presentes para mis amigos y familia, quienes gustaron de los presentes.

Vimos muchas películas, fui por primera vez al cine en otro país, una gran experiencia. La despedida fue triste nuevamente, llorando de nuevo, pero teníamos la certeza de que Pree visitaría mi ciudad y mi casa por primera vez, entonces yo me iba ilusionado de que Pree conozca de donde vengo yo y toda mi cultura. Fuimos a Cusco, pero esa es historia para el siguiente post...

Wednesday 28 March 2012

Infinite Love


                                           Infinite love is the only truth, everything else is illusion.

Tuesday 27 March 2012

Wednesday 15 February 2012

Valentine's day


I sometimes caught myself thinking about a time you will be living with me. I suddenly put a smile on my face, and I see a life with much more happiness and that calm air that only Victor  Kitamoto knows how to bring. You inspire me, you always did, even while using your most shy silence. Damn sexy charm. These shy eyes tell me a lot about you. And all we have lived till here tells me we can really make it. We've made it till here, I mean. Wasn't easy, but we did it.

I wish us, in this valentine's day, a lot of love, union and patience. Thank you for being with me, for hanging on so well, even in the most hard lonely nights. You make all this suffering (we can't denny) worth in many ways and I want u to know that I'm crazy about you and I'm not giving up on this. Happy valentine's day, noivinho da Pree. And fix your fucking computer.

Lov,
Lovely Pree